I feel like it's been ages since my last post and the truth is I've started a couple and deleted them because I never got into the groove. So I'm gonna make a quick post today, perhaps just a simplified list of why I'm not posting as much:
This is my hat by the way.
1. I got a new calling (a service responsibility or position) for church. It's a big one. Bigger than I ever realized. In fact, in order to balance other things in life I plan ONLY 1 hour a DAY of Primary stuff to take care of. Yup, I'm the Primary President of our new ward (we just had boundary changes a month ago). Primary is over all children ages 18 months-11 years old.
I am STILL working on filling teachers and Cub Scout leaders and Nursery Leaders. I've submitted a total of 19 names and currently have 6 more callings to even submit names for. I don't know anybody due to boundary changes and have 3 teaches who will be moving by march.
2. Exercise and Diet: as most my readers know I started my New Years Resolution in September. I'm currently in a 'I don't want to do this anymore' mood. I can't stand the sight of spinach, twice a day for 3 months is too much and I'm tired of making such boring meals (basic protein, veggie, and healthy oil). Gross. I still LOVE my exercise though and I have made significant progress (20+ lbs) and there is satisfaction in doing this the right way, but it is also the really really HARD way.
Emma was warming up to the dog, one of her big fears.
3. Emma is 16 months old now and very busy. She is so cute when she's happy that I admit I stop what I'm doing (usually work) to watch her twirl, or climb up on chairs, or reach things on top of the counter, desks, table etc. She is getting so big so fast. She is difficult when sad or angry. She is practicing her age 2 tantrums by prostrating herself on the ground, screaming and kicking legs. This is not so cute, or funny, but keeps me very busy none-the-less. People have the nerve to ask me 'Are you planning a second child soon?'. If they only knew or remembered how much work and emotion goes into one. When I'm emotionally ready I'll know it and I'll announce it so please, don't ask.
I'm exhausted like everybody else, overwhelmed like most, and trying my hardest to stay positive-when all I want to do is scream and pout and kick my legs like Emma does. I'm ready for a vacation and I just had one last weekend...sigh
p.s. These are some pictures (of Emma) of our quick jaunt to Utah
Oh, you poor, sweet thing! I can see why you'd be feeling totally overwhelmed by life. I'm whelmed just reading about it. :) (Of course, the thought of any president calling scares me half death. When I start thinking I'm tired of just doing the music, I think about that.) You can do it though, and you DON'T have to do it alone. Even if everything's not perfect (and it won't be), it'll be okay. If you can manage to love the Lord, love your family, love yourself, and love the kids you serve, that's doing pretty well. The details *will* work themselves out eventually.
ReplyDeleteHaving children, grumpy or happy is an incredible blessing, i didn't mean to be mean by asking, just excited for you. I am Sorry I asked. You will be great at this new calling. Because you are so in tune with the spirit. I have every bit of faith in You!
ReplyDeleteI love you Erin! I believe in you! You can do it! My mom is the Primary Pres so if you ever want/need ideas or help, I'm sure she would be glad to talk to you anytime. She loves you too! Keep smiling! :D
ReplyDeleteErin, I think you are amazing and such an example to me! One thing I love about you is how readily you recognize your shortcomings yet strive so valiantly to improve. It makes me feel like there is hope for me as well :)
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